Well, While Im At It
It felt really good to get R out of my life.
Yup, it stung for a minute, but really, just a minute.
He contacted me last night, on my way out to do just as I said I would; hug my friends, watch some great music, make a new friend (a SUPER sexy one, at that), play with puppies, and you know what, it felt AWESOME to tell him to go. I didnt want him around. My back is turned to you, that ship has sailed, that door is closed, and any other clich you could possibly think of.
As shameful as this may or may not sound, being brutally honest is something Im not super well-versed at. I mean, its not like I lie, its just that sometimes I tend to roll a little too well with the punches, predominantly when it comes to my own emotions.
I guess its because I dont want to seem dramatic.
But you know what? Being HONEST doesnt always equate to being dramatic.
Anyway, in his contact, R was pleading for me to stay in his life, even if just as a friend.
Why? Because Im awesome
THAT logic makes his ENTIRE argument void.
I KNOW Im awesome, and because I KNOW Im awesome, I KNOW that hes not worth keeping in my life.
Im awesome, I need awesome people in my life. He CLEARLY didnt make the cut.
It felt amazing to say to him EXACTLY what I want to say.
Im gonna do this WAY more often.
Oh, here, by the way, since I've been vanilla for the last 2 posts, enjoy.
Yup, it stung for a minute, but really, just a minute.
He contacted me last night, on my way out to do just as I said I would; hug my friends, watch some great music, make a new friend (a SUPER sexy one, at that), play with puppies, and you know what, it felt AWESOME to tell him to go. I didnt want him around. My back is turned to you, that ship has sailed, that door is closed, and any other clich you could possibly think of.
As shameful as this may or may not sound, being brutally honest is something Im not super well-versed at. I mean, its not like I lie, its just that sometimes I tend to roll a little too well with the punches, predominantly when it comes to my own emotions.
I guess its because I dont want to seem dramatic.
But you know what? Being HONEST doesnt always equate to being dramatic.
Anyway, in his contact, R was pleading for me to stay in his life, even if just as a friend.
Why? Because Im awesome
THAT logic makes his ENTIRE argument void.
I KNOW Im awesome, and because I KNOW Im awesome, I KNOW that hes not worth keeping in my life.
Im awesome, I need awesome people in my life. He CLEARLY didnt make the cut.
It felt amazing to say to him EXACTLY what I want to say.
Im gonna do this WAY more often.
Oh, here, by the way, since I've been vanilla for the last 2 posts, enjoy.
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