Jumping A Hurdle

Obviously, in my line of work, I have a few mental hang-ups.

One of my MASSIVE mental blocks stems from an incident with an uncircumcised guy.

It was a struggle to keep that guys hands off me, (remember, they dont get to touch me EVER) and at one point, he looked at me, and said, Youre built like a 12 year old girl. I LOOOOOOOOOVE 12 year olds.
Its safe to say that image, creepy stare, uncircumcised cock and all is BURNED into my brain.

Yuk.

Unfortunately for him, R is uncircumcised.

When I first saw it the other night, Im not gonna lie, I was put off. But I was more aggravated that our sexy evening hit such a GIANT speed bump, and that as turned on as I was, all my mind could think about was that creepy guy who likes little girls.

He was so gracious and so sweet about the fact that I couldnt suck his cock. It was great.

So, Ive been mulling it over in my mind. Trying to climb that mental hurdle.

Today, I climbed it. Im only sad that I didnt get to suck his cock to commemorate the occasion.

How?

Well, Ill tell ya.

We spent the afternoon at the nude beach (although, I was naked, he never got that way, but its cool, I was just fine with looking at him in any condition).

We sat on the rocks for hours talking, time just disappearing, as it always seems to do when hes around. And I opened up about stuff. As much as I HATE to admit this, because I HATE to do it, I cried. Not much, but a tear or two escaped my eyeball.

If he was uncomfortable, even for a second, he never let it show. Theres something about a man that will sit next to me when Im visibly upset and be just as solid as he is when hes naked and on top of me.

But as we sat there talking, I found myself consumed with this desire to do NOTHING more than please him. To make him as happy as I was at that moment. Hes so kind and sweet that it was the VERY least I could do. And only a part of what I WANTED to do.

Unfortunately we were at a public (but nude) park, and lewd acts arent allowed.

LUCKILY, though, I had my trusty imagination with me, so I started fantasizing about him. And I realized, in my fantasy that I had no qualms about putting his cock in my mouth.

I was really having a tough time NOT grabbing him and going at him.

And when he walked me up to my door, it really took everything I had to NOT yank him inside and go at it (damn my messy apartment!).

So, I think I climbed that mental wall. And while I didnt have the time to suck on him tonight, I guess the only way Ill know for sure is once I get a chance to get my hands on his fantastic body, and his cock.